My spirited child....

I am the mother of a spirited child.  For those of you out there with one, you know what I mean.  I am the one who looks disheveled, tired and on edge most of the time.  I am the one you stare at in the supermarket as my spirited child throws himself on the floor screaming because I won`t get him what he wants.  I am the one who is always running as my child escapes me the moment he can to go where he wants to go.  I am the one you frown at when you see me carrying my child and he has no socks or boots on in mid-winter.  Trust me, he does own a pair, he just doesn`t want to wear them, and sometimes, it`s just not worth the battle.  I am the mother with the kids who may or may not have a clean face or clean clothes..... heck, I don`t even know if I brushed my own teeth this morning let alone theirs!  I am the one who sounds like a raving lunatic as I try hard to keep my voice low when all I want to do is scream at the top of my lungs for him to listen to me. I am the one trying hard to refrain from beating my car with a baseball bat because my kid doesn`t want to get in his carseat. I am the one who drives by the psych ward and wonders if it will soon be my new home.  I am the one who thinks being an alcoholic may not be such a bad idea...... I am the one who wolfs down an entire box of chocolate so I can make it through the day!  I am the one who will drive around for 2 hours while my kids sleep in the back seat because I so need the break. I am the one who looks at my sleeping children and wonders how such sweet angels can exhaust me so..... I am the one who is in bed at 8pm cause I need all the sleep I can get to make it through another day.....

To any of you out there who think you might have a spirited child, do yourself a favour and buy the book `Raising your spirited child`` by Mary Sheedy Kurcinka.... lots of good tips in there for keeping your cool and diffusing a situation before it happens.

I just may have to reread it for the next 20 years or so....

I love you my children.....

Dear Santa.....

Santa, this year I have tried hard to be a good girl. I wasn't always successful, I know I had moments, but overall, I think I did the best I could with the nerves I was born with.

This year, I find it difficult asking for things I want because i think i have way more than I possibly need and so many people out there need the very basics in life food, clothing and shelter, and a place to be safe.  I have been extremely humbled by 6 people this Christmas season.  Rachel, Charli, Jailee, Nate, Sean and Elsie, while I have never met you, you have changed my life. I want to take you all in and give you everything you need. I want to know you are safe and warm and not hungry......

So Santa, this year, you can forget about bringing me a present and give it to someone out there who really needs it. That will be the best present ever for me!

If you could just sprinkle some extra patience, tolerance and energy my way though, that would be great!

Thanks Santa!  Love you!!  xoxo

Joyeux Noël.....

OK, so it's been a little over a year and 4 months since I last posted......  lazy??  Maybe....  I guess that like many people Facebook has been the easy way out.  Status update is way easier to do than sit and write a whole blog post.  Anyway, today I felt the need to write.  There are so many things I want to write about but just don't know where to start.

Kids....

Well, life with 3 kids is certainly quite an experience. Especially having a spirited one and one following the spirited one.... Some days I am totally exhausted, actually that pretty much describes every day.  I was not prepared for the whirlwind that 2 extra kids would bring into my life.  It has been challenging, but very rewarding as well.  Lucas is 11 now and so grown up.  He's a beautiful child both inside and out.  He has such a big heart and a wonderful smile.  He is funny and loves to make others laugh. He has been a tremendous help to me since the arrival of his brothers.  He is growing up though and not needing his mama as much as he used to. Sometimes I miss the nights we used to cuddle on the couch and watch movies. I love you Lucas!!

Nathan is almost 4.  He is a wonderful spirited child with energy I only wish I had!  He is smarter and wiser than his 4 short years, definitely an old soul!  Sometimes I wonder where he comes up with the things he does.  He is very observant and doesn't miss a thing!  he is very independant and wants to do everything by himself.  He loves everything to do with trains, trucks and anything that goes!  I love you Nathan!!

Brennan is 2 and into everything now!  He is in the discovery stage.  He'd much rather open the cupboards and take out the gravy boat to play with than any of his toys.  His is adorable and has big brown eyes that can melt any heart!  He loves tools and he loves his blankie!! I love you Brennan!!

My boys, you have changed my life for the better! I could not ask for a more wonderful life no matter how tired I am at the end of the day! You make it all worthwhile!

I am looking forward to Christmas morning to see your reactions when you open your presents!  It will be a fun year as you are all old enough to enjoy it now!  Tonight we are going to visit Santa!  Speaking of Santa, I must post my letter to him......